Etched in my Mind

Did you ever notice?  When we are asked questions like “how are you” or “how’s it going,” we often respond with an overwhelming list of things going on in our lives.  We are so consumed with “busy-ness” that it has grown into a kind of “badge of honor.”  We live in a world where we are going, going, going.  So much so, that it has become the norm and we don’t even question it.  We move around on auto-pilot, as if we are sleeping, yet all the while attempting to manage our day to day lives.

I’ll never forget the year I woke up.  It was when our daughter was born (kids have a way of bringing us back to reality, even if only for a moment).  I knew somehow it would all change so quickly.  I recall being very aware of it and I knew I did not want to miss it.  So what did I do?

I made a conscious decision to remember.

Often, while rocking her to sleep, I would study her little mouth, her beautiful fingers, her chubby cheeks.  I made myself take in the smells of the room (and yes, even the not so nice smells as I realized the diaper genie had gotten a bit too full).  I refused to allow myself to get anxious that laundry needed to be done, there were bills to pay, or maybe my husband and I had fought earlier that day.  There are so many things that can steal our peace!

Instead, I listened to the sound of her breathing, growing heavier with each moment as she drifted into dreamland.  I felt the tiny weight of her body against my lap with my arm wrapped around her, holding her close.  I remembered!

I did that as many times as I could.  Not just when I was rocking her to sleep but when we were reading books together, or playing games.  Whatever we did, I tried to stop and take in the moment.  Though she is now a teenager, to this day I can recall many memories of our time together.  I have them etched in my mind.  So etched that I even remember the smells!

That’s living in the moment.  Make sure you stop, take it in, don’t miss a beat ~ you won’t regret it!

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